Who am I?

Welcome to my thoughts about the next 9 (well 8) months! Thats right! Im pregnant! Crazy! Anyway...some background.

5 months ago, my husband (Brad) and I got married. It was a beautiful wedding although sometimes I wish more people had made it. Like every couple, we have our ups and downs...but WAY more ups than downs. He is the love of my life and I cant imagine being without him. We've known each other for the last 3 years and actually moved in together as best friends before we realized we wanted to be together forever. He is first and foremost my best friend.

Anyway...so we decided that when the new year came around, I would go off my birth control. I had done some research and found that it takes the average couple 6 months to get pregnant. I figured we were good! However, I had forgotten that my mother warned me when we got married. She said "When you decide to have kids, make sure you are REALLY ready. Because I got pregnant right we when started trying". I should have listened! I stopped taking my b/c on New Years Day and I found out on Jan. 31st that I was pregnant!

My first reaction was shock...I hadnt told Brad that I suspected anything and it was the day before I was supposed to start my period. I took the test then decided to take care of taking the dogs out and feeding them and everything while it sat.  The whole time, I was thinking that I was silly...Im not pregnant. Im just being crazy. I walked back into the bathroom and saw 2 pink lines. I laughed and laughed...partly out of excitement and partly out of terror. This is uncharted territory for me. I have NO idea what to expect. Brad wasnt due to be home for another 3 hours...I swear it was the longest 3 hours of my life. When he came home, I had left the positive test on the table in the living room where I knew he would sit to eat some dinner. I went into the kitchen to heat up some food for him and just waited for him to find it. When he finally saw it, he was in disbelief. Completely surprised. He didnt actually recover until about a day and a half later. He made me take 2 MORE tests to be sure! He has finally embraced it and he is really excited about it. He worries about me and takes care of me. I really do have an AMAZING husband.

Ive only known for 4 days but already my life has changed. I am eating healthier, taking vitamins, and one of the harder things for me, stopped drinking Miller Lite. I think the worst part of this week is not being able to tell my mom yet. My mom is out of the country till tomorrow (2/5) and I cant talk to her on the phone. Of course since this is my first pregnancy, every little twinge down there makes me freak out. I have relied heavily on Google to make sure everything Im feeling is normal (so far it is). Thankfully, mom comes back tomorrow and we get to pick her up from the airport. I cant wait to have her home and be able to call her and make sure she went through the same things.

We are telling both sets of parents tomorrow and this child will be the first Grandchild on both sides. His parents are coming to eat lunch with us tomorrow. We are telling them by giving them a floor plan of our new house (we are hopefully starting to build soon) with relabeled rooms such as "Grandparents Room" and "Baby's Room". My parents are coming back into town from a cruise and we are picking them up from the airport with words written on the window of the car saying "Welcome home Grandma and Grandpa!". I know my mom is going to BAWL! She has been asking for grandchildren since we got married. My dad might cry too. I cant wait to have that support system back.

So now you might be asking..."How are you feeling?". Well thanks for asking! I feel pretty good. I am around 5 weeks along (according to websites, Im due on October 11th). I dont think Ive ever been more tired in my life. I feel like I could sleep all day. I feel bad for Brad because whenever Im home, I just want to sleep and sleep and sleep. Other that that, Im good! No sickness or anything (if I get it, they say itll start next week). Every once in a while, I feel pressure in my lower abdomen but according to numerous sites, thats normal. Im a bit of a dork...I research EVERYTHING!. Part of me hopes that I have no morning sickness but they say that people with more morning sickness, have more successful pregnancies. Hmmm...either no sickness or better chance of healthy baby. What a terrible choice! Oh well. Ill just take it as it comes and remember that it means everything is going well. My first appointment is on March 2nd...it seems WAY far away. Im kinda hoping we will get to hear the heartbeat and everything but I just dont know.

Anyway...if I start puking everywhere, Ill let you know ;)